The Edge of Glory

So, everyday since my official 'retirement' as a student have been packed. I think there was only one day that I actually stayed home the entire day. Can't help that mummy hates me once in a while. I still love her to bits. Sent her flowers on Mothers' Day knowing that she would say "Wa how much is this why you always waste money ahhhh" but knew that she would be sekretly happy.

Set up flea market stall with S on Saturday. It was mega awesome cos we realized whatever we do, wherever we go, there're bound to be fail moments. I love her to bits. For being the most spontaneous friend ever. (We agreed to have the flea stall on Thursday and decision made, money paid and all set in 5 minutes) As spontaneous as we are, we are extremely last minute people as well. Cos we were frantically searching for a clothes rack at 1:30pm. Tried Cold Stone Creamery and didn't get what the hype was all about.

Took a bus ride to bukit panjang with Skips. I missed the times we had long, random talks about life, ourselves and people in our lives [: And last week at the newly renovated and very haps looking Clementi Mall, the whole group of us were talking about Mell's not-so-distant wedding and deciding on activities for Hen's Night and the color of the dresses the jie-meis would be wearing. We've come so far and became friends for a decade. And counting (:

Bangkok in less than a week and the States in about 2 weeks! Going to be mad broke after all these traveling but i heart plane rides and travels.

Clubbed too much this year, this sem. But Singapore just bores me to the core. Still trying to get my life together and unless I feel that I've got it right, I'd remain like this. I'm happy I'm sure of what I want and where I wanna be. So just give me time, let me chance upon it. Meanwhile I get to party [: Down side is, my alcohol tolerance has been improving like a steep curve. It srsly sucks to be the last one standing every time. & puking is the best feeling on Earth cos I would feel like I've purged all the toxins in me. Up side being I know that my friends would be safe with me. Time to reciprocate cos I've always being the one being taken care of. All the bloody damn while. I love you friends. For cleaning vomit, waiting hours outside bathrooms etc. I really do <3

Sometimes I hate those accurate vibes I get from people and situations. (I'm also extremely sure I'd live to hate what I just said) I just feel less innocent once I get those thoughts. And it's not like I can help it.

Every step I take I leave room for excuses for myself to use. I never wanna be the bad guy. ok, girl. So it isn't easy to get signals from me. Cos I hardly ever give out any. And if it ever crossed your mind, I will never ever give out wrong signals. So when in doubt, assume negative [:

And a very significant part of my extremely happy life now is that THE AIR CONDITIONER IS NOT WORKING. ):

twenty-2-2-soon

i think we need to know that i'll never be the same again.

because i've learnt to accept.

& everyone should accept me for who i am right now.

best of B & C

hahaha so kute! (:

your best is always good enough

early bird catches the worm

vs.

only fools rush in where angels fear to tread

slugs can't be early birds and moreover im one excitement-seeking slug.

vanilla twilight

notebookdoodles likes the same owl city song ((:

and that favourite line as well.

wow.

i totally should have this on my wall

sekret supplies

i miss yellowrush so much im returning here to blog (:
and copied the few entries on livejournal over.
and i decided i shan't number my entries anymore.

tmr's the start of the second week of school and i've only got a lecture from 6 to 8pm. i feel very lazy. but i like going to school, gives me something to do! otherwise i'll keep wanting to play and be exciting.

and from ignorance level of 100 i've progressed to knowledge level of 70 mebbe. HAHAHA. thank you black crooks and heehee.

#180.

finally the sense of urgency. three days left only!!!!
surveys of 5 countries to read. so many pagesssss. of economics, politics, firm strategies. see, doing business very not easy.
the japan one was interesting though, they mentioned uniqlo!!!!
hahaha that was like *DINGDINGDING* despite the boring looooong texts in the pdf file.

and i have to say that my brother is one of the most understanding person on earth!

#179.

I MISS YOU FRIEND. i dont miss miss you. i just miss the old you. not fair. why am i always the one staying the same and other people do not.

studying and preparing for the last paper has been a big failure. HOHO. i had NINE days to prepare. and all i did was to facebook, online shop and even go shopping! hahaha terrible. i promise from the minute i blog this post, i'm gonna be conscientious, diligent funshine (: and talking about that, the facebook care bears quiz refuses to let me be funshine, despite my many attempts heh. auds told me perhaps they didnt even have funshine has one of their options. then the quiz maker is horrible, shouldn't even make such a quiz luhhh. what's a carebear quiz without funshine. and facebook doesn't have a fan page for funshine!!!! why ): i wanna become a fan. dumbo's a fan of dumbo who'll fly me to funshine yeyyy.

from study week till now, i think i spent about 200+ on online shopping. i deserve to be scolded. when has studying become so expensive. aiiiiiii. anyway i <3 the wallet heeheeheehee. so pretty and flowery hahahaha. i bet jeremin is gonna say im auntie again or something. but whey, it's from accessorizeuk ok!

was at suntec yesterday and traffic was !@#$%^&*(). taxi drivers were @#$%^&*( ^100000000. haha and nope, i wasn't there for AWARE. had to send and wait for ahma to finish watching her concert at the convention hall. soooo many aunties there!

sometimes i amaze myself. i haven't blogged like this in a long time hahaha feels funny. so not subtle i don't like. okayyy, time to be diligent me.

#178.

i love grocery shopping with my parents.

but whenever im asked to return bags of ruffles/lays/calbee back to the shelves, i'll have to settle for cereal/granola instead.

especially during exam times like now.

that makes me very upset.

MUMMY I WANT TO EAT POTATO CHIPPPPPPPPPSSSSSS.

#174.

your very tired.
you should go to sleep!
fasterrrrrrr.


funshine,
be fine.

#173.

i wish for you to be happy.

i wish to be more lg.

i wish to have supersonic ability to know what's ringing in your head.

i wish i knew when to say and when to shut up.

i wish to be your friend.

i wish for exams to be over.

i wish for intelligent stuff to write for two hours for urban planning paper tmr.

i wish for me to be happy.

#164.

funshine no friend soon ):

break my heart only luh.

see who breaks whose. BLUFF. just bluff.


BYEBYE.

#162.

dear diary,

affection comes from within.
you need to feel something, before you can even sound affectionate.
right?

if 'the heart soon forgets what the eyes sees not' is true,
hello anomaly, your here.

it's so special that sometimes i think i'm vulnerable.

and i always have been. i love to put myself in situations like these.

and i've an insane ability to recover in no time if it's gone. or if i want it to be away.

i'm SUPERfunshine.

#159.

on nights like these, i really don't feel like talking.

and on days like these, i don't really wanna go to sweden next year.

suddenly everything doesn't matter anymore.

i wish i was at the pool tonight.

i wish there was someone, something i can put my heart and soul into.

enough of fun, funshine.

#158.

recess week is almost over and i think i spent the week feeling bored, despite having many many things to do. bestest says i do not know how to deal with free time and mebbe that's true.

yesterday two of my favourite people texted me goodnight but i fell asleep feeling quite sad.

playing canoe polo is like smoking. and black crooks is the cigarette. but it's diminishing.

a constant will always be a constant like what the term means, regardless of where, when and what.

not purposely means naturally.

i like things round and fat and their names all happen to begin with the letter P. penguins, pooh and purple elephants.

nus is the coldest school ever, cos i stopped forging good friendships. i'm contented with what i already have. warmth in school is found at the pool.

this is random but not emo, and i love status quos =)

#157.

and school started today.

the days since the last post have been exciting awesome happy i dunno what. just packedpackedpacked with activities. sometimes i really think this is how i like it to be. till i get sick of it i suppose.

i promise to use my brain more more more.
if there's any bit of something called Clever left in it, i need to put it to good use.

otherwise, funshinetan stop procrastinating stop playing and do something!

haha otherwise the crooks will scold me! for being playful. funshinetan is no party animal I PROMISE. no more alcohol promise. no more getting high promise.

i've to admit i have no fire for cp. still. pottie says i'll find it back, surely definitely. i wonder when.

mummy's worried about me and my driving. i promise to be safe. i won't floor the accelerator and i will not chiong those amber lights. i will keep myself safe.

and i will also keep myself safe and happy for all things else (:

its almost threeeeee. horrible fragmented thoughts. luckily school's at 3 tmr.

#155.

saturday morning.

breakfast.

and i've got a whole load of things to do.

1. pack the damn room.
- FOLD MY CLOTHES. im a sloth. i dump them into the cupboard without folding. now it's like a ^ mountain.
- dump my notes. but keep some mebbe? which means i've got some filtering to do.
- keep the textbooks. to sell them when sem starts.

2. scan passport-sized photo.

3. write that personal statement hello. it's only three thousand and eight hundred CHARACTERS.

4. PACK LUGGAGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#151.


your subtlety,





my weakness.

#148.

the terrible flu and phlegmy cough ):
im public enemy number 1 in the house. and they think i created the enmity.

getting irritable easily. probably cos im sick.
probably cos exams are nearing.

mood index hit a bottom low. kang came over for subway lunch last week. and i was asking them what we were asked during biz comm class.

have you ever ate outside alone?
have you ever went shopping alone? meaning go out with the intention of browsing, trying stuff on etc. and not just buy and go.
have you ever watched a movie alone?

wj and kang were surprised my answers were yes to all!
there's still this quiet kid in me. despite giving the impression that i always have many people around me. back then in primary school, the form teacher commented every year in the report book for me to speak up more cos i was way too quiet.

SEE!

i love the 五月天 album (:
and their emo --> highness songs.
and i especially love the beginning of 突然好想你


最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

(:

i showed this chunk to zp and he said see already also gaowei.
HAHAHA. certainly certainly.
the lyrics are like how nice!
and the way zp expresses himself is like how funny!

mcgriddles morning tmr with wj & jacq (:
happy birthday chen yi ming (:
35 days to our fantamazing taiwan (: