Bulletproof

It's indeed surreal that I'm heading to the States for Graduation Trip. It was like BAMbamBAMWHOA. But YEAH! We're going to the US of A :D

I guess mummy only had 2 days to change her game plan. Cos in the end, I booked my tickets before I got a job. Yeh, will be more pro-active now. PROMISE.

I think everything is just the way I want it right now? Maybe? Or maybe not. Since Lund, I've always felt being back home bores the hell of me that makes me who I am. I probably prefer the person I was in Lund. Going on Skype to screamshoutrant if something bothered me. Here, it's much unhealthier.

It's Week 7 & I haven't written a single shit for CP, or FYP as everyone knows it. ggxxttm. I'm such an optimist sometimes that I hate myself. At this point, I still have absolute faith of producing a mind-blowin' jaw-droppin' CP report & presentation in Week 13. But I also love that my optimism is contagious to some extent.

That day in the car, when our voices and laughter drowned the music from the radio, it was a really happy moment and I was really glad for friends like J and L.

Life points me in the wrong direction at times cos it stops me from truly feeling cos I'm afraid of losing.

I remember something bestest once told me. That when too much output is from one side it's unhealthy cos it tips the friendship balance. That's why he's bestest & nobody can beat that cos our balance was never tipped. But cos nothing is constant and although it never tipped, it kind of disappeared altogether.

#156.

all things exciting starts today (:

till the end of the year.

and hopefully next year

YAY.

see everyone soon!

fantamazing taiwan bound.

#138.

sometimes i like how everything just happens at the same time, or one after another and overwhelm me.

before embarking on the genting trip, i had a huge quarrel with my parents. because i didnt ask for their permission before confirming the trip. i've got to admit im in the wrong but she didnt have to go so far in her reprimanding. and obviously i got my way. i always do. sometimes im sick of always getting my way, getting what i want.

and during the quarrel i actually threw back all my credit cards at the mummy. almost threw the handphone cos of her constant nagging about my spending habits, the handphone bills, skipping work, going out etc etc. I AM SO SICK OF THE SAME OLD THINGS. say something new. you know i can't change. i've been like this for the longest time you've known me, papa has known me. but alright, sometimes i should stop being a spoilt brat.

i had a blast at genting with 9P (: despite falling sick on the second day. the company was superb. i think that's why we're so awake when we're back at the hotel room rather than when we're out there walking :P 9P <3

and i feel blessed. with everything i have right now. remember the chapter many of your hate? its closed now. closed for good (: mylove says im happier. i think i am. bestest says i need to get used to the space. but i thought, there was never the space. i've been busy all the while. it was always who and what i chose to be busy with. and really, no one can tell you if you've grown up. you know it yourself.

and when i came back from genting, i caught the freaking stomach flu. OMG. i didnt know stomach flu can be so bad, so painful. i was rolling in bed for the longest time i can ever remember cos i didnt dare tell mummy and papa. i thought i was going to be alright after the first time i puked. but it didn't stop. i vomitted i diarrhoea-ed thru the night. the night before training camp. so i didn't sleep a wink. and i rolled in bed in pain when i wasnt in the toilet vomitting and diarrhoea-ing till 5am when i really couldn't take it anymore. woke my parents up and mummy thought it was gastric and made me drink milk. sometimes i think mummy is such a noob at such stuff hahahaha. and of cos as noob as her, i drank the milk and made all the vomitting start again. went to the hospital and i was too scared so i didnt want to take the jab to stop the pain. but the pills didnt help so i took the jab in the end. SO RELIEVED :)

as a result, i missed training camp ): only joined them on saturday night and the friendlies on sunday. i sucked on tuesday seriously. so easily tired and panting like hell. damnnn. and i kept ZERO goals. im so damn serious. but okay, yesterday was better (: nat champs are cominggggg. go nus go crooks ((((:

im so angry that red cliff ended halfway. BOOO. when's the next one coming out! so gaowei to watch halfway ): i watched mostly cos of tony leung! heehee. anyway mummy says he's finally getting married with carina lau. like really FINALLY. i like them tgt heehee. and i bought a gold watch when i was out with zp on weds for red cliff. mylove says WHY SO UNCLE. hey its vintage alright. hahaha.

and i bought a scarf too :DD when i was out with jas yesterday. met db during her lunch hour at v8. then shopped around and we had marvelous cream together (: the idea of marvelous cream is more marvelous than the ice cream itself. hahaha. i think i've been having too much diary products since i recovered. dragged mummy to royal copahagen for cheesecake on monday. where i bumped into ki jason jas and bf! then there was the jumbo tub of yoghurt with zp on weds and marvelous cream on thurs. sweet for my sweets :D

oh and dearest jaskip bought me my current addiction. MEN'S POCKY :) bitter chocolate rocks. but i dont get why they have to associate men with it. i bet they'll make some pinko strawberry pocky and call it Ladies' Pocky or something.
alrights, this is bloody long. cos i wanna keep myself busy, be good and not go out for the first day this week. hahaha today's friday omg i know im a horrible kid oh well. so that i can ask about the bangkok trip hahaha. that's why they say everything happens for a reason.

heehee.