Bulletproof

It's indeed surreal that I'm heading to the States for Graduation Trip. It was like BAMbamBAMWHOA. But YEAH! We're going to the US of A :D

I guess mummy only had 2 days to change her game plan. Cos in the end, I booked my tickets before I got a job. Yeh, will be more pro-active now. PROMISE.

I think everything is just the way I want it right now? Maybe? Or maybe not. Since Lund, I've always felt being back home bores the hell of me that makes me who I am. I probably prefer the person I was in Lund. Going on Skype to screamshoutrant if something bothered me. Here, it's much unhealthier.

It's Week 7 & I haven't written a single shit for CP, or FYP as everyone knows it. ggxxttm. I'm such an optimist sometimes that I hate myself. At this point, I still have absolute faith of producing a mind-blowin' jaw-droppin' CP report & presentation in Week 13. But I also love that my optimism is contagious to some extent.

That day in the car, when our voices and laughter drowned the music from the radio, it was a really happy moment and I was really glad for friends like J and L.

Life points me in the wrong direction at times cos it stops me from truly feeling cos I'm afraid of losing.

I remember something bestest once told me. That when too much output is from one side it's unhealthy cos it tips the friendship balance. That's why he's bestest & nobody can beat that cos our balance was never tipped. But cos nothing is constant and although it never tipped, it kind of disappeared altogether.

transient

the most heartwarming things come from the simplest words.

recently i realised it's not easy to maintain friendships.

friendships which over time, meant a lot to me.

mebbe i should just be contented with whatever i have.

i don't know if i've tried hard enough, but i've tried. and i stopped.

it's the change in intensity that makes the difference. there are people i talk to often, but not everyday. somehow you never felt that those friendships ever change.

reality sucks. and indeed, the heart soon forgets what the eye sees not.

and may the unhealthy reliance be gone for good.

#176.

vs.

(:

#170.

special is:

same same but different.

bestest and his LITMUS TEST.
so funnnnny. acidic = remains pink, alkaline = turns blue. correct?
hahaha so is it supposed to be pink or blue then!
aye i remember there's one more test which bleached the litmus paper or something! turns white!! i want that more extremmmmmme.

and i hope this has arrived and is with you already!
see, the goodlucks have been filled to the brim (though you can't see it).
but you know it cos EIGHT wheels are needed to move the whole truck (:

#158.

recess week is almost over and i think i spent the week feeling bored, despite having many many things to do. bestest says i do not know how to deal with free time and mebbe that's true.

yesterday two of my favourite people texted me goodnight but i fell asleep feeling quite sad.

playing canoe polo is like smoking. and black crooks is the cigarette. but it's diminishing.

a constant will always be a constant like what the term means, regardless of where, when and what.

not purposely means naturally.

i like things round and fat and their names all happen to begin with the letter P. penguins, pooh and purple elephants.

nus is the coldest school ever, cos i stopped forging good friendships. i'm contented with what i already have. warmth in school is found at the pool.

this is random but not emo, and i love status quos =)

#152.

last sunday was a full black crooks trng before the break for exams. and it was super fun :D not so much of what we did. but cos all of us were there on a beautiful sunday morning (: and we played a full game. black crooks vs. black crooks 5 on 5! haha it was the first time we played against each other so cool hahaha. black crooks for lifeeee~

mugging at home has been the worst thing ever. i sleep like a log. and i sleep like a log more often than a pig. so off to science library on monday and tuesday. and it wasn't a pb-planned canoe polo study day but 7 crooks kinda just 不约而同! hahaha jan's favourite cheng yu. so we all happened to be at science library. and it's good cos i don't fall asleep there. but what's not good is that i like to freeze like a penguin in the igloo ( i know igloos belong to the eskimos but i just like the idea) and the twix and all the rubbish snacks isn't gonna cure my horrible phlegmy cough. and yes i've decided not to be stubborn and start eating medicine and drinking liang cha cos this half sick feeling is getting no fun. and many sorries to mummy who has been scolding nagging for me to eat medicine.

and my bestest is in europe and i missed him online yesterday but his long email kept me quite entertained this morning. haha first day overseas syndrome! i wanna be there too especially with the terrible studying here sigh. nvm gonna be over soon. means fantamazing soon (:

and this exams. very scary. very very. i've never skipped so many classes before. so revision is such a long and arduous journey. lots of good lucks have funs for funshine please.

time to hit the sacks.
wake early don't snooze and snooze promise.

#136.


i saw another place selling this on my way home that day.
!@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*

"o no, lumpy's getting common :( "
"you mean you saw it somewhere else?"
"YES! the big one that i have :( "

then my favouritest person in this world says that's why material never beat relationships cos

there is one and only you, one and only me but many heffs.

"its lumpy, not heffs. you make it sound like a panting elephant."
"either way i don't think it sounds nice. lumpy sounds like an elephant with skin disease. isn't that worse?"


you made my day! (:
and yes you live up to your name bestest.