this is how it ends

You would always have me,

and I would always want you.

#194.
he says

2 July
3:34pm

"if you cannot put your heart into it, take yourself out of it."

#183.

Sometimes being a friend means mastering the art of timing. There is a time for silence. A time to let go and allow people to hurl themselves into their own destiny. And a time to prepare to pick up the pieces when it’s all over.

-- Gloria Naylor

#148.

the terrible flu and phlegmy cough ):
im public enemy number 1 in the house. and they think i created the enmity.

getting irritable easily. probably cos im sick.
probably cos exams are nearing.

mood index hit a bottom low. kang came over for subway lunch last week. and i was asking them what we were asked during biz comm class.

have you ever ate outside alone?
have you ever went shopping alone? meaning go out with the intention of browsing, trying stuff on etc. and not just buy and go.
have you ever watched a movie alone?

wj and kang were surprised my answers were yes to all!
there's still this quiet kid in me. despite giving the impression that i always have many people around me. back then in primary school, the form teacher commented every year in the report book for me to speak up more cos i was way too quiet.

SEE!

i love the 五月天 album (:
and their emo --> highness songs.
and i especially love the beginning of 突然好想你


最怕空气突然安静 最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息
最怕突然听到你的消息

(:

i showed this chunk to zp and he said see already also gaowei.
HAHAHA. certainly certainly.
the lyrics are like how nice!
and the way zp expresses himself is like how funny!

mcgriddles morning tmr with wj & jacq (:
happy birthday chen yi ming (:
35 days to our fantamazing taiwan (:

#133.

"If I had a camera," I said, "I'd take a picture of you every day. That way I'd remember how you looked every single day of your life."

"I look exactly the same."

"No, you don't. You're changing all the time. Every day a tiny bit. If I could, I'd keep a record of it all."

"If you're so smart, how did I change today?"

"You got a fraction of a millimeter taller, for one thing. Your hair grew a fraction of a millimeter longer. And your breasts grew a fraction of a ----"

"They did not!"

"Yes they did."

"Did NOT."

"Did too."

"What else, you big pig?"

"You got a little happier and also a little sadder."

"Meaning they cancel each other out, leaving me exactly the same."

"Not at all. The fact that you got a little happier today doesn't change the fact that you also became a little sadder. Every day you become a little more of both, which means that right now, at this exact moment, you're the happiest and the saddest you've ever been in your whole life."

"How do you know?"

"Think about it. Have you ever been happier than right now, lying here in the grass?"

"I guess not. No."

"And have you ever been sadder?"

"No."

"It isn't like that for everyone, you know. Some people, like your sister, just get happier and happier every day. And some people, like Beyla Asch, just get sadder and sadder. And some people, like you, get both."

"What about you? Are you the happiest and saddest right now than you've ever been?"

"Of course I am."

"Why?"

"Because nothing makes me happier and nothing makes me sadder than you."

- The History of Love by Nicole Krauss

oh someone please get me the book.

must i really ship it from amazon :(