#191.
so you sailed away, into the grey sky morning

17 June 2009
2:08am

i must constantly remind myself that everything doesn't matter anymore.
whether it was ever special or not,
whether i had ever fallen for it.
that's why i can say everything and anything without meaning them.

sorry is not-at-all-powerful. cos it doesn't mean a lot to me.
having nothing to say is O-so-powerful. its so mysterious and i really love it cos i love everything ambiguous which is awesome cos i don't even wanna wonder about it. and my goodbye friend is so good at this.

you know, i haven't been so true to myself in a long long time.
i speak my mind.
i acknowledge my emotions.
im beginning to think that's my new way of damage control.

finally, for the first time, i didn't get what i wanted. i missed it by abit.

haha please scold me for being emo. this is totally not the point of moving my blog. i suddenly think that as long as i dont change, im caught in this vicious cycle. i wanna be like pottie. i don't need any outlets. im fine being by myself, being my own outlet. im gonna have to try!