#139.

it is 4:20am in the morning. i can't remember what time i fell asleep but school has been so damn taxing. doesn't help that im giving tuition 4 times a week. but i really like my korean kid. he's such a good boy! and i'd always thought i can never tutor kids given my impatience. but well, i guess we, the kids and i, share many things in common. hahaha.

so, its 4:23am now. i opened the tub of cookie dough B&J's to see only 1/10th of it left. without a single glob of cookie dough ): reminded me of ben & jerry's chunk spelunker. people who tunnel thru their favourite flavours to dig up the chunks. haha which is what i love to do. which everyone in my family hates unless the flavour is chubby hubby and i wont bother digging cos the chunks are so filled with eew peanut butter eww.

and thinking of chunk spelunker reminded me of someone's text a few months ago. the text was just 'chunk spelunker :P' B&J's had it on their serviettes all along and i can't believe i didn't notice till i got that text, and then a reply with the meaning. this is how some things just make you think of someone. how the person thought of me when he read the words on the serviette. and how opening the 1/10th tub of cookie dough finding no globs of dough to my dismay reminded me of that text.

pb says texting is taxing. you can't be constantly texting more than one person thruout the day. i chose not to believe cos i dont wanna make myself think it's exclusive.

but sometimes, even if you do not have anything substantial to say, or even if you have absolutely nothing to say, you just need to text. that someone? im like that. i forgot since when but there's always someone there. and this person comes and goes. though i really hope it can be the same one always. but they like to come and go. so i don't have much of a choice or do i? its the reliance, its the attention. its just nice to know there's someone there.

okae and then today i accidentally got to know something which made me a little upset. considering how much we communicate, i can be angry? haha alrights. but i've no time or energy to feel angry cos jap is driving me nuts. but im done with hiragana (: anyway, mebbe i should really stop talking on impulse and start saying things only when i mean it.

its 4:44am. i should really get back to the tutorial.