#130.

hello you.

are you psychic?

like when i sign in on msn, and before i can check who is online for me to rant to, the window pops up with your "Hello =)"

and like when im terribly bored from studying, suddenly my self-proclaimed scary message alert tone plays and my handphone reads "Message from ___"

i wish these could happen more often.

but this is a fucking selfish thought.

i hate how im using your concern and attention to keep myself occupied.

i hate myself for telling you no, i dont like you to do this and no, i dont like you to do that,

when i have absolutely no right to.

im seriously fucking damn selfish.

mebbe this thing we have is exclusive.

or is it not.

its causing me to impose all my selfish thoughts and actions on you.

and its detrimental to myself, especially when you reciprocate.

such a confusing relationship.

but i cant help it, sorry you.

because you're the one who changed me.