#66.

unknowingly the reliance on this person grows and grows. until it becomes a form of over-reliance. and then you realise that this person isn't too dependable afterall. im not a very independent person to begin with so some things, i just cant help it.

am very sad. but i know i dont have the right to. one thing has been bugging me for very long. time and again, i try to convince myself that since it's all over and everything's back to normal, there's no point in me finding out. perhaps there isnt even an answer to it. but i know im wrong and this is simply a matter of self-deceiving on my part.

sudden state of confusion so i went blog-hopping and ended up even more confused. the mind is a complexed thing. together with things from the minds of others, yours ends up worse.

THINK --- FILTER --- SPEAK.
so typical of many people. i would love to do away with the 'filter' part but come to think of it, it's quite brainless afterall. im not someone who is very careful with my words and most of the time i dont understand all the underlying meanings my friends try to insert into their words. i really wish i do too but it's simply... lack of talent la.

sometimes i should just choose to speak nothing at all rather than to say the wrong things. i should learn to be firm on this.

just for memory sake, was filmed on gotcha! with 9P. so retarded!


anyway, to sum up today:

• PW OP. crappy but finally over. many thanks to kang. love you as group leader (: jeremin zhuipei yuanchyi, HI106 will be remembered. and mr valles too.

• carl's junior was yummy. and i think their portions are really ok if you're famished. if not, just dont order stuff like Superstar. and beware of the sugar syrup for the iced tea! still very in love with wednesday's dinner at spageddies tho.

• I LOVE OLIVER TWIST! (:

• waffles, crepes and brownie with lots of ice-cream + nice chat with lene and patrick at this idunnoitsname cafe in cine :)))

• then, so disappointed.