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i don't wanna make it seem like the whole world owes me or something. and im really sorry if the yingxia you all saw yesterday was scary and somehow affected you all in one way or another. yep, so i sincerely apologise. plus thankyou all who asked if i was ok and asked me to cheer up. thanks. i claimed that i was alright but obviously i wasn't la. but it's just me, didn't want to let it get to others but i guess it wasn't really the case.

to 05s6a, cihan, jiehui, zeying, andy the bernard, nicholas, sharan, mich, mayping, ms ng, ms gan and everyone and anyone, thanks for caring and tolerating.

dongua, i still cannot believe u wanted me to eat the dou hua in the library! haha, and yep, really thanks alot alot for everything. and just by being there.

bestest, i know what you're going thru isn't all that smooth-sailing either. but whatever it is, i think we now know what we should do. and it's hard to put appreciation into words, so there:)

LeS, thank you for just being there in the library with me. hah i dunno what to say but yah, you've always been there:)

Happy Friend, thanks for your call which triggered my tears=P but u know it's not the negative kind. yep, and we will never become Tragic Friends again. jiayou okae.


everytime when the going gets tough, i would feel as if the whole world's gonna crash on me. i thought i could take things very well. actually, i did take things well. at least at first. but when it gets tougher and tougher and things just aren't going my way or just simply, i feel way lost, what had been inside me from day 1 in hwachong suddenly felt so overwhelming. then i would ask myself the very same question again. was hc the wrong choice right from the beginning?

i can never come up with an answer. or rather, i don't want to. cos im here for good. yes, the grass is always greener on the other side. but who would want to admit you won't be happy where you are right now. bestest said it's either to live the next 1.5 years being miserable and dreading almost everything about school, or be happy. and to start, i know i have to lower my expectations of many things. studies, results, class, friends and even the whole damned environment on me. there's no need to maximise, just achieve optimum.

talked to my mum over the phone on friday when i was feeling so upset over who knows what. i suddenly just felt like talking to her, even though i know there's 80% chance she would give me some irrelevant advice. but surprisingly, i felt better after our convo that afternoon. i realised mums are always reassuring:)

alright, back to the irritating Project Work. PI and GPP is driving me nuts. valles is nice but not good. i wished we had a teacher who is more dominant and firm than that.

and my ouxiang's leaving the class. got his humans scholarship. wish him luck:D ohyah, his identity? brandon. haha like who dunno yet=P

PE tmr. im gonna whack benjamin during floorball!!!!!! ahahaha. The Evil after The Depressed.

tata.